Sick Mom

Guess What??

So I am feeling good , Tyson is feeling better and I head out to work on my midnight shift. Hate midnights but manage through them. When all of the sudden I had the same feeling as Tyson...
"I'm gunna puke".

Needless to say the last place you want to be when that happens is at work. Where your stuck and can't go home till your eight hours are up. Mostly because you would have to call someone in at 3am.

So I am dying.. and going to bed. I have to call my Mom though, Dalton is suppose to come home today and I hope she can keep him after church and since tomorrow is a pa day keep him the night.

Sick boy

Today was an interesting day... Tyson was home from school today and being his normal run around, get into stuff, see if I can get Mom crazy self.....when all of the sudden he says to me...."Mom I'm gunna puke!!" My reply was "run to the washroom...QUICK!"

And that he did. He got sick and then told me that he "peed out of his bum while he puked". I laughed but at the time he failed to see the humour.

My little man was oh so sick for the whole rest of the day and half of Saturday. But he feels better now and I am happy about that.

Even more happy that Dalton went to my brother's for the weekend so he won't get it!! I am hoping that he doesn't get it. He will miss his ski trip next week with school. He is gone to my brother's to head to Toronto for the monster trucks. He got a ticket for Christmas from them. He was so excited to go.

Miss P

I am happy to report that Miss P has finally checked in and since she has started this journey with me she has lost 13 lbs. She is doing it the weight watchers route but she is doing a great job. It seems that she is swimming, going to curves, and generally just more active.
So thanks for joining me Miss P, I can't wait till we shop for skinny jeans together!!
WOOT WOOT!

Here is the bathroom

Here it is, just not quite done. Lights are still on the floor and the painting needs a few touch ups but in general I am glad that it is done and ready to use. With 4 of us in the house two bathrooms can never be a bad thing! Especially when in a few years they will be teens!!

NOT A stinking thing!

Not a thing lost this week.

My own fault.

I didn't get my fanny moving too much. I know I need to. We just were so busy this week getting stuff done and there didn't seem to be enough hours in the day. It isn't an excuse this time.

Scott was here doing the tiles in the bathroom and the shower. And the mess was crazy. I would clean up everyday when I got home from work and then try to get the regular things done and go on the field trip skating and bowling with my kids classes!

Ugg. Not discouraged though just know that I have to make the time. I;m just as important as the kids and the house!!

I know it but sometimes I think that sleep just needs to win!

Supper visit!

Baby Belly!!!

Steph is getting a baby belly!!

Todd and Steph, friends of ours came for supper tonight. We killed the guys at sequence. After supper. Too Funny!!!

They are expecting a baby in the spring and Steph is coming right along in the baby department. She and Todd are so excited to have a baby. They will make great parents, I just see how they are with my two terrors. lol

We had a great supper of turkey with all the fix ins which make for great leftovers for the rest of the week while I'm at work!

Thanks Todd and Steph we had a great time. I can't believe that I forgot to look at those baby pics!!

Next time.
Love ya's

Dietician...

Today we saw a dietitian for Darin's diabetes. We were suppose to go a year ago but it just never happened. They never called. So it was off to go today. We learned a lot. He did. I have read all the books and know what he/ we should be doing. He had to track his meals for 4 days before he went to see her. 2 days I planned and 2 days he planned. She laughed and said to him.... Do you know what 2 says of meals that I am going to pick??
Darin..... I dunno?

Nurse.... it isn't the day with the clam chowder and a sleeve of white soda crackers or the day of Kraft dinner and 8 oz steak. Oh and no veggies to be seen..

Darin... really?? Sounds good to me.

Nurse.... I think that you should eat to what your wife makes you and kinda stick to that... maybe just maybe your blood sugar wouldn't be 22. Then she smiled.

That was how he appointment went. Explaining what he should and shouldn't eat. How much, when etc.

So now I just have to plan the week out a bit better and get rid of A LOT of stuff in my cupboards that he tends to grab for quick ,easy,and convenient snacks.

We go back in the end of Feb to see how he makes out.

The weigh in..

Was sceptical about it today because of the Chinese food and the cake. For Mom's party. However. I didn't overeat. I had everything I wanted, and a piece of cake. So I was satisfied but hoped it would not show up today.
Well. I lost a pound! Just one. One is better than nothing. Nothing... sucks. It happens but it sucks.
1
So happy that gets me down one more....

Good bye one pound. Hate to lose and old friend but well you know.......

SEE YA!!!

Happy Birthday MOM!!

Today is my Mom's 65Th Birthday. She has been looking forward to it for a couple if years now. Not looking forward to getting older but to the pension. She hasn't been able to work and Workers comp really screwed her so now she is finally entitled to the pension she paid into for so many years!
So she deserves it! We are going out for supper then back to their house for cake and coffee. Yes, I will have cake but.... It will be small and after all it is carrot cake so it can't be all bad can it??? I hate to know.
So, I love my Mom dearly and can't thank her enough for all she does for our family. The babysitting, the grandparents weekends, the get the kids to activities when Mom's at work, the call her up to vent, the can ya??, times I've called her. Just in general for being there and loving us as much as she possibly can!
Even if she doesn't understand she might shake her head and make some dumb look but she'll always come through!
WE LOVE YOU MOM! Happy Birthday!

P.s. Thanks for not telling us you won the cake on the radio!! lol

Yeah......off to a good start!!

So the scale was good to me this week. Or I was good to myself it depends on how you wanna look at it. I think the weigh in on Wednesdays will be a good thing. So even though, it has been9 days since my last scale date. I want to tell you!!!!

207 lbs!!

that means... down again since before the Christmas splurge. Not that I am forgiving myself, just a learning experience on hard hard it is ti get back. We have to learn form example. Too bad I just learned from my own. But that's OK.

I was one happy camper again this am!

Woo hoot!!!

Life Changes

Isn't it funny when we find it easy to make poor choices but when it comes time to "change" the way we think all of the sudden you hear people say how hard it is?? It is hard, hard because we have to rethink the way we have made bad choices that got us here to begin with.

My husband's Dr. visit wasn't as easy as mine. He was told if he doesn't get it together that he will soon have to start taking insulin. That is not what he wants and he is trying to make the change. It is harder for him because he loves all the things he cannot have. That and they are tainted with sugar. He has to make choices now based on circumstance not choice.

I have no doubt he will. He loves his kids too much not to . But I have told him for many years that the stuff he puts in his mouth will kill him. he hates the Dr. But now they are soon to be best friends. His blood sugar was 22. Normal is around 7. He has to get it together. This is the worst he has felt since I have known him. We go to the dietitian next week. I am looking forward to it for our entire family. I think it's about time we all get it together as a family instead of individually.

On another note. I have managed to keep myself together. My Grandma is very ill and has been in the hospital for a week or so. I know that she is 84 and that he time is nearing an end. I was there to visit her this summer in Manitoba and I notice hos her body is failing her. I love her dearly and dread......"the call". I know she is ready. She told me. I know that it is what she wants. She told me. I just hate being here instead of there. It makes it hard. It is in the back of my head all day long eating at me.

But I have managed to keep it together. Eating has been good and exercise is coming along. I hope this week we'll see a change in the scale again. I have changed my weigh in day to Wednesday as a suggestion from the doctor. Mondays were hard because of changing eating patterns to to shifts. So he suggested doing it on a day that my patterns are always the same. So Wednesdays seem to be a regular eating day always and give me a day between my midnights and evenings to get me back on track!

I hope you are all having a great weekend!! I think Tyson and I are going to go tobogganing!
Have a good day!

Dr. visit.....

So I weighed in at the Dr. today. I was 210. I am ok with that. Means I am back to 2 lbs. I am happy. Not so much happy but ok with that.

He is looking at my Thyroid. I guess I took pills for this years ago but since Tyson I have kinda "forgot" about it. So he sent me home with a new prescription and a blood lab form.

So now to get back on track and get some sense about this eating thing.

New year, New habits, New way of thinking!!

We are going to make the best of 2010 aren't we!!

Accountablilty....

It means so much doesn't it??

I am about to touch a couple of subjects that Ive encountered over the holidays that make me mad and others that make me wonder??? Hmmm

First... Gastric Bypass...

If you have been effected by this stop reading now you might be totally PO'd by my comments.

A few of my in law's have had this done. I have to admit, that the effects have been apparent in both cases. But after spending sometime with them over the holidays I have to wonder. I wonder how this effects their bodies. I wonder what exactly they have learned from their eating habits. ( Because from where I sat, it didn't seem like much) . I adore these people dearly and I don't want to hurt anyone but if you are in your midlife and feel like you have no other recourse because of health and size and all the other effects that your Dr actually thinks it is a good idea than I can sympathize. However if you are in your 20's and just want the easy way out than I'm not so sure that I agree.
From my perspective. And it is mine alone. I saw that the patterns of eating went from way over eating to eating non stop. I have to wonder. I have read lots on this subject and you can stretch it out, in time. So if you have not learned anything from having to have it done that you now eat non stop and can't control it because you are always hungry then how has it helped you? Is there not some sort of counselling that should be required when you feel the need to alter you body in order to control your eating? The way I see it it just gives you another excuse to eat in a different way. Still garbage, still too much, but now instead of big meals....it's non stop still using the excuse your hungry.
I'm sorry if I offend those of you who have been effected by this. I am sorry if your story is different. I hope it is. I just think that if you want to lose weight you have to suffer the consequence of what you have done to your body in order to realize that only you can change the effects of the choices you made! it is how we learn. It shouldn't be easy. Easy is how we got FAT in the first place!
So if your mad. I can't help that. People don't mind sharing their feelings with me. Vocally. I just have a little more respect for people by sharing here and if you don't like it leave. That simple. It's my opinion.

Second. Accountability. Funny word. Funny to me because if I fall off the food wagon... who am I accountable to?? You? I hope you all would leave inspiring messages to get my *ss in gear. Which you do (thanks so much) I appreciate it greatly. I wish that I had someone that lived close to me that could walk with me. Take time to kick my *ss in gear. I work shifts, it's hard. I have small kids, it's hard. It is bad weather, it's hard. I can make excuses all day.

I have gained another 2 lbs this week. It's depressing. I can overcome this now that life is back to normal. But how do we learn to manage? How do we find the momentum to kick ourselves in the fanny to get our stuff together. It's mental thinking. I know. Finding that thing that fits!

I look forward to june for so many reasons! A friend is having a baby. She will be on maturnity. I am looking forward to seeing/ meeting that baby.. pushing that stroller and getting her/his mommy over or me there for walks in the nice warm fresh air! HINT HINT!! I know she will want to be getting back on track to so with her off which normally she works shifts it will be a buit easier for us to go together.

Wednesday I go to the Dr. Nothing wrong...no gastric bypass in sight...lol ! Just the physical I have been putting off since Tyson was born four years ago. So maybe I will make that a new starting point.

Hmmm.... Accountabilty. Thing is guess if I don't take control of my own accountability then I have no one to blame but myself.

Any ideas on how to keep yourself accountable other than blogging? How do you keep on track? I read you blogs, I know what you tell us. Any secrets methods you have that you don't share. You would think that the joy of the scale and smaller pants would be enough? Why is it that food fills such a void.

Ugg you could go crazy going around and around about it!!

Have a great day! See you tommorrow after the DR!!

I look forward to your comments on this not so light subject. What do you think??